Since I have started job hunting in September, I have gone to 3 interviews.
I really want to praise the Lord in providing me these interviews,
even I haven't received any offer so far and this is discouraged though.
Yesterday...
I went to my third and as usual, it went fine, not good not bad..fair maybe.
After the interview, some thoughts were happening to my mind.
Thoughts and feeling were too complicated to tell at that moment.
I was distracted and even passed freeway entrance many time when I was driving.
I was unable to feel anything from the interview.
Was I excited or disappointed?
Was I satisfied what I presented or upset b/c I can do better?
It made me recall my experiences looking for traineeship last year (2007).
I went to 10 interviews and of course, I sent out more than 10 applications.
Even I got the one God provided at the end,
I have to say, the process was tough for me to handle, when I recall it.
I even doubted that does God forget me, His little girl somewhere in LA?
Discouragement and disappointment raised up and almost overwhelmed me.
I was reading Bible everyday.
It is the first time I experienced communicating with Father.
He told me:
"you don't realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand."
"Don't be afraid; just believe!"
"My daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering."
"The time has come. Glorify Your son, that Your son may glorify You."
These Scriptures are in different Gospels, but it DOES fit in the situation I expereinecd.
THEREFORE,
When I am looking for my first job in the US, when I have same anxiety as I had last year,
I told myself, nothing but Him.
This time, I feel that Father wants me to know more about Him.
He wants me to be patient b/c He will tell me His purpose/promise to me.
He is teaching me how to wait upon Him and,
during the time, how to live in a fruitful/joyful life.
How to establish deeper faith.
How to be strong, how to be tall!
I am still in the process of experiencing and understanding Father's purpose.
I am still waiting.
However,
I do have hope b/c I have nothing but Faith, and that's what Father keeps reminding to me.
So,
Please pray for me, my brothers and sisters.
Pray for my patience, endurance and joy!
Pray for my faith, spiritual wisdom and understanding.
And of course,
pray for my job, my future.
I will be waiting for THE ONE Father provide.
Three interview I went:
(1) AEGIS Medial System
www.aegismed.com
This one is providing treatment to clients with drug addiction problems.
The thing drows my attention is their working hours: 05:00 a.m to 01:30 p.m
Their lunch time is 09:30 a.m
Interesting uh.. 09:30, I even don't have breakfast yet
(2) Vista Hill
www.vistahill.org/programs/donallen.htm
This is school-based.
Target population is 6th to 8th grade student with behavioral problems, physical and verbal violence.
The interview went on one hour. Questions were diverse, from professional to personality.
(3) LeRoy Haynes
www.leroyhaynes.org
This is very intense. It's residential, community and school-based.
The interview went on half an hour.
There's one question that I haven't been asking:
"Tell us about you other than resume you put. We want to know "you" outside of your resume."
Well, to be honest, I cannot be connected to these three jobs.
And I have got two rejects for the first two jobs.
As for the third one, I know somethinh missing amongst us (two interviewers and me).
I am not that opmistic to the outcome.
I cannot help asking myself,
what's the job I fit in?
What do they want?
What do they want from me?
What do they want as being a mental health therapist?
Then,
I found that they want the part USC didn't teach me.
On the contrary,
that part is different from what I have learned and identified as a therapist.
Of course,
there's no conflicts between the part they want and the part I do have now.
Praise the Lord,
He open my eyes to have me see my weakness.
The weakness which is not only in my life, it also reflects on my job.
I believe I will be fitting in every mental health therapist job,
after I recognize/identity my weakness and then work on it.
"Be strong now; be strong" (Daniel 10:19)
"When he spoke to me, I was strengthened and said, "Speak, my Lord, since you have given me strength." (Daniel 10:19)
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